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今の大好きなバンドをまだ知らなかった時間を考えるのが何か変な感じです、、 特に、今、あの時の物を見ること、、 たとえ、絵とか写真とか、、 あの時今の私を知って来たなら

Hey, Beauties! Is anyone out there? How's it going? Hope, everyone is having a lot of inspiration and never gives up on art! Dream on and go for it no matter what! To be honest, spending more time self-studying and learning to play guitar (yeah, still learning! :lmao: ) or writing some sort of novel I personally draw less these days, but I do not forget and do not give it up completely... But my attempts to draw now are more like sketches which I think are not quite suitable for DevArt... So I share them more or less privately with friends on my accs outside DA... Miss messaging with friends here, miss discussing music :heart: Although

..have I told something like this many times before? I guess so. But... You know, I've tried to find confidence and harmony either doing something for real - I mean some kind of working or creative activity - or trying to imagine myself doing that... and I failed. Every time. Feeling useless and as if being in someone else's place. I've been refusing my heart's old wishes, overfeeding my fears, doubts and lack of confidence... and so... now there's only one way left for me and if I'm not going it, I die.

What is the important thing Your teachers taught You? My teachers have taught me to be myself... brave and confident too :heart:

I wonder, why everytime I happen to think of writing a post here it's mostly when some changes are about to come and I rarely write about things between and what exactly is gonna change? xD I'm quite irrational! But I'm learning passionately a new language - the one everyone knows about, but... And I'm learning to speak it fluently and openly, without any hesitation, with no fear to be misunderstood, cos' it's a different dimension! :heart:   And I'm more enchanted by music and visual art than ever, grateful to my highly respected and admired teachers and FRIENDS, who teach me even more! I wish everyone Freedom, Beauty and Magic!!! :rose: :st